Sunday, January 07, 2007

Thank you Ms. Hill.

My hands were shaking.

I'm certain that I cut way too many lemon twists tonight but I couldn't stop myself. She was working across the counter from me...Everything I had planned on saying suddenly didn't make sense anymore and I just kept trying to get the words right. It's been a while since I've been so aware of my heart beating inside my chest. My lungs needed oxygen. It felt like I was cutting lemons for the last 10 years.

And then I found the courage.

It's such a beautiful thing..to be able to surprise yourself after 22 years and do things you really didn't think you had the strength or courage for. For the moment I feel like I'm capable of anything. I'm excited about my future.

I don't know where it's headed..

and I can't wait.